Of one of my favourite things.........

I should be leaving this blog alone but its too tempting.......

What is the game football becoming!! Is Totti a fairy? For godsake neon yellow spandex underwear? Mutu is a junky so is Ashley Cole, he's playing with junk-food more specifically a PIZZA (with extra chesse- more sticky he threw it at Sir Alex F.). But you gotta hand it to him the got some balls.

And why Sir Alex wont sue, maybe cause he's Scottish; you'd probably have to a throw haggis at him.

ciao

NOTICE

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entery fee: RM 45.oo

The Champion
Cash Prize RM 350 per team and including sponsored prizes

The 1st Runner-up Team
Cash Prize RM250 per team

The 2nd Runner-up Team
Cash Prize RM150 per team

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sigh......

i m taking a break see you in december

more like i m to busy with my project.

don't miss me

note to self: i just turned 24, why why why?


b'day cake (it's choc. banana yum)

Is this what I want to do?


Boy i been asking myself this question since the begining of the year. I still don't have the answer but i have a whole ot other things I want to do.

I want to backpack in spain, france and italy then move on the south america

I want to save the animals especially the tiger and coral reefs in this Malaysia where half the time people thing that cutting down tree won't killed them at the end of the day.

I want to have the childerns programme for sciences cause the one the have know sucks

I want to read a book without being interupted by a million other things

I want be be able to express myself better when I write and stop trying to think of the right words all the time.

But for now i need to get back to work and I feel like sleeping.

FYI: 17 -19 of September is "clean up the world" weekend. My uni mates and I are going P.D. tommorrow pick up rubbish. It part of a global effort to keep the world clean and this year's theme is sea and oceans.

Crunch Crunch!

Oh yeah I'm begining to feel the heat. I dawning upon me I have done of thing to do on top of that I have problems with my project, meaning more things do to. I'll have to reschedule my work plan. Nooooooo! THis is the best part about doing science research, it ALWAYS obey murphy's law; what can go wrong will go wrong. SO that what I've been getting the whole week unexpected results. I wish my love life was this interesting.

Funny thing happened this week. I went to get my passport done. While I was collecting it i didnt bother to check my detail as I assumed that the officer had already check it. I went to uni using the LRT and while waiting for my train i decided to look at my brand new passport. Check the spelling of my name, i.c. number and when I looked under sex I was shocked it was stated i was a PEREMPUAN-P. Yes in capital letter, well everything was in capital letter. Luckly the mistake could be correct that morning itself. Af first i wanted to actually to leave it alone and wonder what would happen if I used it would i able to fool the immigration check point? Hmm I wonder. Could i just say i had a sex change, eer wait i cant prove that.

so whatever so much for finding out what could happen.

note to self: i need i break but i can have one yet. must force body to work. damn wish i taken a year off and join green peace.

THIS WEEK WAS HELL.

If you can mesure how thick a piece of paper is that was how close I was to loosing my temper. I was already in a bad mood because of my work and now a have to "babysit" three 3rd year students. I'll leave out the detail but one thing is for sure they sure are not using their grey matter often enough. Their excuse for what ever they are doing is Dr. So and so ask them to do so. Great answer for someone that has had 2 1/2 years of UNIVERSITY EDUCATION! THink like a god damn scientist for god's sake, be sceptikal. that's the first and foremost rule of being a scientist. It's simple as using of god given common sense. Question what you are doing only that way you'll understand the purpose why it is done that way and the many other ways of doing the same thing.

okay now i feel much better sigh.... back to the labs.

"I have heard it all before"
 
I can’t say your name.
It would betray everything I believed in,
I want to say so bad that I scream it to myself silently
You have taken a part of me,
Part of me I didn’t even know could be taken,
What hope that it’ll ever be returned.
I don’t think you even know it,
You left me here with the misery, the burden
The loneliness, OH! Damn the loneliness.
Trap in a cage, huddled in a corner.
I screamed your name in hatred and anger.
Cursing the day I first heard
That still lingers in my ear …….
That is your name…..

"Hello"

I got a visit from you. Quite unexpected.
I saw you with a child. You usher him off. You looked happy,… motherly.
I was busy..  you were busy…. Wish you could stay I bit longer just a minute longer.
I had to go. So do you.
We didn’t say good bye and you left. I stand to see you go off with and wonder it I’ll see you again.
I’ll see you in my dreams.
I’ll be there if you’ll are there.
 
Did I say hello?
I wanted to say hello

just letting off steam

i have been swearing the whole day,not something that i normally do and doing it with a carefree soul. i dont care whose hearing it, up yours i say. the pass few week have been really hectic and filled with experimental problems so what else is new. the weather disagrees with me nowadays. i cant jog, cant play tennis arrrrg all the pent up anger is making me sick, literally; i have a cold.[**** you]

it already july damn! why is father time is such a hurry where's he rushing off to.

i want to live life a little slower, smell the roses. Yeah i risk missing the bus home. That seems to be my life always rushing to get something done before my work load pile up. Delays will be expected just like today i couldnt obtain any RNA from my extraction. thinking off it makes me want to swear again. Is there a bigger picture i should be seeing? I dont see any answers to the meaning to life here. its just another day another failure and the "try again next time" neon sign goes blink blink. [**** you]

saw spider man 2 last saturday its was a good movie. lucky i dont have his problems but i will always wonder what's it like to be him.

"NnnOOOOOOOOOOOOO" as opposed to GOOOOOAaaaLLLLL

(cry of agony)
Bloody heelll. Bioata.
italian shit, they fancculo themselves once again by screwing up the first to matches and now they can horse kick themselves across spain back to italy. Hopefully they'll get run over by spainish bulls.. buggered. Yup totti must be damn glad he can now go home and get his hair washed and locks fixed.

good news England is through lets see how far they'll go.(background singing) aint he a jolly good fellow, god save the queen.

"killing two birds with 17 ringgit"

don't ask, i'll tell. long story short, caught on the phone will driving with an expired driver's licence. paid 17 bucks has a nice chat.

oh bad luck to someone else.. she had to give 304. three zero four, what the 4 doing there shouldn't it be a zero. just to show every little bit counts depends to side are u on anyway.

note to self: what have to done. half a year has gone. la la la

"this just in"

ArrrrRRGggGGG!
THe world has no sympathy for the little people, like me.
Our uni has decided that we do not "deserve" a graduation dinner. Boo hoo, on top of that they increase our graduation fees by 2 and a 1/2 times , more boo hoo.

so we decided to take matters into our own hands. muahahahah.
dont worry we are not goin to target people we dont like we are goin to organise our own dinner.

blame your pre-frontal lobe.

Anybody read TIME magazine lately (issue date 31 may 04). if you have trouble prioritising your work say between watching shrek 2 and rushing a major essay. if you choosed watching sherk 2, like me you have pretty much undevelop pre frontal lobe. this part of the brain apparently matures the latest. it separates the child from the adults not the humans and monkeys.

so if i get my brain scan by a huge electomagnet(its really huge, no metals are found in that room and would not want to wear your metal earing there punk) probably still have more grey matter there than the rest of my brains.SO it not just hormones after all. it's this area where your brains are wired then there's white matter where the rest of your brain cells are. so the older you get the less connection the brain has but the remaining ones are very strong. if you loose them like thro' a stroke you would probably become a vegetable or less servere impairment of recent memory, inattentiveness, inability to concentrate, behavior disorders, difficulty in learning new information. hmm you might also show lack of inhibition (inappropriate social and/or sexual behavior).

Is also interesting that this region of the brain is related to happiness. Happy here means contentment like a person meditation for the one watching porn. Science still amazes me, at the moment it gives me excuses why i am acting the way i am so Its not REALLY my fault isit? visit discovery channe asia for more info

blah bla bah

cool eh, a word like "blah" can have a few varieties.. or i m just mispelling the word. if any of you have been read the "mumbling" i wrote you would notice something about the grammar and the spelling - i dont check them it's done on purpose. i am a lazy person period and getting lazier. I still procracinating one of my 3000 word essay,it entering its second month. OH someone please give me a deadline! i am wasting precious time here typing rubbish but it feels great.

i was quite free this week nothing major to do. Life is becoming routine again. work in the lab from 9 to 10, sit in front of the pc from 10 - 12, have lunch untill 1, work in the lab go home at 5 or check mail in the PC lab. reach home eat watch tv,read a few pages sleep.

wait i'll have to continue this later it lunch time. ;)

jeezz i forgot

ha ha joke on me I forgot I had a blog. can u imagine that.
"so that why there hasn't been an entry for soooo long.", "oh whateveer"

there nothing much to enter, whatever I wanted to say has already slipped my mind and I couldn't be bother to remember what it was about unfortunately my recall is shity and vague.

lately I have been thinking about what to do with my life. at the moment it goin nowhere. my life so far has been punctuated so many times that I have to start a fresh. it always different with no continuity apparent anywhere. I hate it - the uncertainty- and like it and the same time but most of the time I hate it.

most people I know are somewhere in their life already, u know settling in a job, relationship ... that kinda stuff. me I m still hangin here, not really goin anywhere still thinking about other stuff like backpacking after I finish my 4th year at uni. I m goin to be 24 i'll probably get my 1st full time job when I m 26. that taking a holiday when I m 25

ok see ya people.

can i hav a new brain

jeez how many things can a person forget. let me tell you.

monday: left my lab key at home so hav to bug the lab tech to lend me the spare or else i cant do my work, all my pipette are in there.

tuesday: left my key at the lab and forgot the lock my drawers, could result in a thef of the expensive pipettes, trust me it will cost me my one years allowance to repay them.

wednesday: forgot there was a meeting, yeah daryan remidnded me.

thrusday: confused i m indeed. Mixed up two event can blame me i wrote in down so i was stuck in my head. damn forgot to collect lecuture, and he went back to australia damn again

friday: TGIF. jeez what i dumb week. oh damn forgot it was my friends (yup its more than one friend) birthday on the 3rd,31st last month and 3rd april. 3 at one go what a record. its been a trend i tend to remember thier birthdays like after they passed.

hmmm i wonedering could it be the organiser i hav. i think i remember more things when i dont keep one.

its been awfully quiet..... too quiet.

what do you went you have too much spare time in your hands especially on a april fools day. if you think about it there are plenty of naughty things one can be in a lab that like screwing up someones elses experiment but i'm not a bad person. anyway that could also result in mine being screwed as well which was what just happened. Just last year i was busy rushing assignments and projects that i worked tirelessly during my last sesmeter and even after my semester was over. however i find i have choosen a project that has just a bit too much waiting time. i wait for my thing to be sterilised, wait for the bacteria, wait for them to die so i wait wait wait and wait.

this leaves me i a "what the hell i m goin to do now" state cause i am use to having no idle time, now when i have them i feel quite lost and even distress. i thought of reading a book but i could never concentrate long enough cause i keep starering at the clock to see if the time is up. lepaking is at the nearest mall is just pointless, go, come back and my time's up (hmm good excersice). so for the pass month i've been sitting in the lab underground staring at the same old faces of my fellow course mates; theres only 3 of us. i have made a bet with them i will go insane by the end of the semester.

on a lighter note, my goth name is lucid nightmere, i dont get it but sound kinda cool :).
hey you people sould try this. click on Goth name

i need a favour, please say a prayer for me that everthing will turn out fine.

thank you.

yup I just as I guess it, I knew it would happen. I foresee it even before it started. (focus focus)

where to go from here

Just an update. My experiments ended in failure when other previously have succeeded. It's simple preparation work yet its giving me a headed. who would thought I would have trouble with sometime that is not even catagorised as living and its sole purpose in life (if it even has one) is to replicate. BUT ITS NOT. Venting my fustrations on this page is not going to help so on to a happier note.

errr errr. there jeez happy times are hard to come by arent they? come on happy thought happy thought..... arrr went to see a movie but not the one I wanted to see but was still okay. found the popcorn too sweet for my liking (damn my so negative). had ramli burgers 3 days in a row well they were very tempting. oh I cant help it if its right on the path to the bus stop huh.

great I have no idea where this is goin. to be honest I have something to say but I m wondering should I put it down on this page. I just realise would I ever be the same again well I feel the same but I little empty inside right now. hollow feeling. yet its not depressing I cant quite describe it. Sometimes even glad, weird huh. maybe next time i'll have the gut to put it into words.

happy thoughts happy thoughts

dude where my car?

arrggg, its one of those days again. i am waiting and walking to the freezer twice to retrieve items one at a time when I could have gotten them all at once. I label my container yet I put the wrong stuff into them. bloody hell I fell like a f****ing zombie today. I must learn to focus. arrrg yet I don't know how to stop myself from making mistakes. it's a bloody waste of time. cost me half a day repeat some of my work sometimes 2 days. bah what I m babbling about I wont even think coherently at the moment......

let's see what is the results tomorrow.

p.s.- to my dear 1st year lab students. STOP calling me SIR!

My bad habit.

Okay i have a confession to make i m a procrastinator aka a very very lazy person. Dude i have been like that ever since i can ever remember. I remember doin my homework at the very last minute and never finishing them so the next day i wait in anticipation of the rotan. Oh yeah this was primary school. i was very happy that this did not happen during secondary school. yup i get to get away with not doin homework. no rotan woo hoo! The worst that could happen was "lee mana you punya kerja rumah" sometimes they (the teachers) don't even bother. However my grades where okay due to tuition centers and pass year papers (thank god our edu. system was so predictable), no pun intended.

God i only started to break this habit when i was in pre-u that because now my mom and i was in the same school! no. We are not studying together. The result where pretty satisfying for the first time in my god damn life i like studying. i thought i would be doin a business course or something not sciences anymore. After some persuading from my mom i took up science again and enjoying it. Yes even i though i was weird. very.

This habit is beginning to pinch me hard now. First i have no dead line for my work just a time frame. hah they are actually time me an excuse to u know what. So now day a drag myself out of bed everyday just to do something, plan, type proposals etc. Somehow i cant break the habit yet i still delay my work by at least a few hours from as planned time. i ask myself why do i give myself such suffering. The last time i delay i work i nearly cost me a grade (also partly my PCs fault, hey i cant take all the blame).

If i continue doin this this year the results will be disastrous. [details later]

Hmmmm.

great i bloging again doesn't feel as great as when a first started for some reason. Maybe its cause how my holidays are over and i have to focus on my studies again..... Jeez. Well i sorta got what i wanted but not happy just greateful yes greateful, though some people were happy for me (i thank them very much).

Well i just i have to put my travel plans on hold AGAIN bah! Some how i'm not sure what to think. Before this i was so sure i didn't want this and then flip 180, arrggh! please tell me i m not female.

hMMMmM again
Quits my part time job last sunday felt kinda reluctant, i was a nice place to hang around - nice people...free foood... ice cream.....mmmm. As a goin away present i've got egg in my hair and coffee around my face. I think thats my last free meal.. haha. Well truly enjoy working there and i've got some scars to remind me of it. Cheers to all to them. Good luck to my replacement and hope of new boss in kind.

note to self - to blog or not to blog?

Hopeless!!!!!!!

that's how I feeling at the moment. I'm waiting for an offer that I first thought I didn't want. Now a want it quite badly. Why. Apparently one of my friends got the offer call and I didn't guess I'll have to called them up to confirm. Jeezz I have to start thinking about plan be. sigh........... wish me luck.

Hopeless!!!!!!!

thats how i feeling at the moment. I'm waiting for an offer that i first thought i didnt want. Now a want it quite badly. why. apparently one of my friends got the offer call and i didnt guess i'll hav to called them up to confrim. Jeezz i have to start thinking about plan be. sigh........... wish me luck.

Itchy legs

arrrg worked for 12 hours straight...... again and only getting 48 bucks. wondering isit worth it..
read one of my friends blog and reminded me how much i want to go rock climbing...really love the sport but pricey. Sigh things I do sometimes. The last time I went 2 week ago, if only I can get a day of; working in the f&b business as a PT is crazy. I guess I m "cook"koo that I took this job.... hey I climb walls wat do u expect.

ps- i hav been trying to add some of my friends blogs but met with failure. blogger pls do something.

Review of the week

tue: black out at sungei wang parkson and where I work when i arrived at 7 for my second shift yoo hoo! One hours of bumming around.

wed to thurs: days just fly by cant remembers much accept eat work eat sleep and working again.

fri: cousin fr Aus. dropped by wanted to go watch a movie at Pyramid but ended up at the "Charmed braclet" concert. -wink wink- if my friends found this out they might kill me.

haha.

Am I nuts ?!

Worked for 12 hours today for what. i stand in the kitchen waiting for dishes to arrive. bah! But hey it was easy money. Been doing this for a week already i wonder how long can i take this kind of routine.

hmmmm first entry (thinking of making a big impact) forget bout it.
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